You can feel that I’m ruthless, rude and quite straight forward in my words and approach while communicating because I have been trained to act like a MAN by hiding emotions, ONLY. I’m so unaware that my words can harm and break your soul. Sometimes, I don’t make eye contact with you because I fear that you might get hold of my weaknesses; you are so good at gazing deep into emotions.
I run away from the conversation because I’ve always been running away from facing my own soft side. I sometimes might cry alone but will never show you my tears because I am conditioned not to show tears to anyone. I’ve become manipulative because I lack courage to speak the truth. I try a lot hard to keep you happy but I’ve never been taught to feel and hold your tender emotions. My hormones are not drifted or swayed by my emotions but the pressure to prove myself in this competitive world, earn, finances, juggle of proving self in job, business, etc. takes over. Because this SOCIETY NORMS were not so kind to me as it was with you.My self-worth is mostly associated with my ability to earn for family. I wish my worth was also associated with rearing kids, household management, being more sensible, caring and taking stand for you, being creative, cooking well, stitching well, singing, feeding, nursing my family.
DEAR PARTNER YOU CAN FIND YOUR WORTH BY BEING SO CREATIVE AND FLAWLESS IN MANAGING HOUSE AND FAMILY AND NOW YOU ARE FINANCIAL INDEPENDENT TOO! THE PRESSURE BECOMES HUGE ON US. IN MY PERSPECTIVE THE SOCIETY GAVE YOU ENOUGH CRITERIA’S TO ASSOCIATE YOUR SELF-WORTH WITH BUT THEN WHY OUR WORTH IS LIMITED AND UNDERESTIMATED?
We are so happy to see you grow, we love to be the air beneath your wings that add value to our bruised self-worth, we love you. We will certainly demonstrate our ability to understand your emotions once we face our mental and emotional weaknesses and convert it into strengths.
We didn’t see your emotions because we were never taught to face ours. We don’t want your anger, frustration, hurt but we don’t have any clue what went wrong and where? Be patient in teaching us and we are open to learn, Now.